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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

first day of school at cjc.
it was pretty scary at first, going to a place where there are many things you aint familiar with.
well, at least there are a few familair places around.
people from the different classes are together and blah blah blah.
however, those cj ppl separated us..and since they are so few of us..
we are all separated in diff grps..
lol, and we had orientation..orientation..talks..orientations.
those normal things..

i was like thinking, after first 3mths would i want to stay on to cj..lol.

anyway. i was damned pissed off with my dad.
'you are the only girl here now and u had to take the responisbility of taking care to their needs'
their, referring to, the males.
hello? this is a modern society and u still expects these...
even my mum, 'you are old enough to start a family and...' and all that crap.
wthwthwth. yes i know these are valid like few decades ago. but now?
with all these high QOL, SOL and those things we learnt in school which you dont
you dont understand.
you think you understood me. you blame it on my behaviour. i am sorry to defer.
i am tired of being the submissive to your demands all the time.
while i cant have mine. i wanted to play maple after my o's, and my mum wouldnt even allow. as in let me play till my fill. when will i ever have the time to enjoy like these?
and my mum allows my brother to intrude into 'my' room. which is damn irritating. yeayea, i know these aint my house, therefore i had to adhere to your rules. well well, do you like him to go and poke his head into your business as well?

well, and then you asked me today after school.
what subject do i plan to take?
i told you.
and you asked me if i still want tuition?
i said yes. cos i want to be more advance than the rest?
and what i plan to be? what course i wanted to take in uni later?
i said i am not sure yet. i have to consider my future thoroughly right?

and later, when i didnt do the taak a daughter should do, you got fedup with me and gave me a lecture. grr.

anyway, i dont think u know me well enough even though u say i am like you.
enough said.